Buck Angel is really fucking hot. He’s built, bald, tattooed, and he has a pussy. Buck Angel has been building an empire as the world’s first Female to Male porn star, putting his talents as an activist and an educator to good use. His newest film, Sexing the Transman, manages to combine porn, activism, and education in an illuminating view of transman sexuality. As someone with relatively little knowledge of transsexuality, I appreciate the candid insight.
Sexing the Transman interviews four very different men about their transitions and the changes that testosterone made to their sexuality. I am struck by the similarities. They have all undergone “top surgery,” which is to say that they’ve had total mastectomies. None of them have had “bottom surgery,” meaning that their vulvas and vaginas are intact. They all talked about how uncomfortable they were with their bodies before testosterone and top surgery and how free they felt afterward. “T” evidently makes people pretty horny – like masturbating 5 or 6 times a day. (I’m already like that sometimes, so I’d never leave the house if I took T!) I really like that all of these guys have gotten to a place where they love their bodies.
After their interviews, the transmen took off their clothes so we can see what they look like and they masturbate in front of the camera in ways that are typical for them. I think they are so courageous. How empowering to go from a place where they were uncomfortable with their bodies to sharing such an intimate moment. I got the impression that most of them don’t generally do things like this movie! I’m grateful to see transmen close up because I learned something mind blowing. Testosterone turns clitorises into mini cocks. I did not know this and I think it’s fantastically amazing! It’s important to note that transmen are not just men with pussies – they have anatomy that is unique to transmen. How cool is that?
On a technical level, the music sometimes distracted me from the action. The movie opened with opera and bits of opera were interspersed throughout – like just as someone was about to come. I liked that. The camera angles were very raw and free-form, which worked well with the tenor of the film. I enjoyed that we saw faces as well as cunts, especially when they were about to orgasm. It was also good to see a variety of toys in action. I always like that. Actually, this movie had some of the best pussy shots I’ve ever seen in porn.
The last scene was Buck Angel himself fucking another transman, Fallen. I enjoyed that even more because I like the energy between them, whereas masturbation can be so internal. Buck Angel and Fallen are pretty hard core and beautiful to watch. I only have one complaint, and it’s my own prudishness – I don’t like how much they spit on each other. I get that spit works perfectly well and oral sex spreads spit around just as much, but there’s an iconic thing about spitting on someone. I can’t help it, I wanted to hand them some lube. It’s fine if they are all consenting, but I’m going to deck any lover of mine who spits on me. It definitely took me out of the moment.
It just shows… I happily do things all the time that squick a lot of people (and occasionally things that might make someone else faint, like sticking a needle through my lover’s balls), but here I am having a standard “ew” moment about a thing that’s not part of my personal play. Keeps me honest to remember that “ew” reactions (as opposed to ethics) really are in the eye of the beholder, not intrinsic to what I’m beholding.
I am so thankful for this DVD, though. The biggest thing it did for me was to help me normalize transmen. Transwomen are more a part of our culture, in the form of she-male porn and such, but I haven’t been exposed to transmen. At first, watching this movie, I felt a kind of jolting disconnect to see a man with a cunt where my mind expected a cock. This movie let me have that reaction over and over until I stopped. It helps me internalize, in a very real way, the saying that, “not every person with a vulva is female and not all males have cocks.” I now have a baseline normal for transmen, I think. I also like the terminology I learned to use instead of cunt or pussy – it’s the front hole or the bonus hole!
Overall I found Sexing the Transman to be more educational for me than hot, although it had moments of sexiness. The transmen being interviewed had a sweetness and a realness to them that I love. This movie fed my curiosity and opened my mind. I can now imagine dating a transman. And my crush on Buck Angel has just gotten bigger – he’s sexy, mindful, intelligent, and talented. I’m just glad he’s decided to use his powers for good!