Nov 202011
 

hottest porn everIn a spasm of self-indulgence, I spent yesterday morning curled up in bed, drinking coffee and watching porn. QueerPorn.TV turned one year old and offered a day of free porn in celebration. I was excited to have the opportunity to view some of the video clips, as I have been a fan of queer indie porn. I don’t watch very much porn, so it was an interesting chance to examine some of my nearly unconscious reactions to explicit videos.

I really like QueerPorn.TV. Their videos feature people who look like real people and cover a broad range of gender and sexuality. In many of the videos, there’s a palpable connection between the talent. It got me thinking about why I like to watch porn. It’s not to get off, although I end up feeling vaguely turned on. I mostly enjoy seeing people naked and engaged in sex because I love sex. Porn is celebratory for me. At it’s best, porn showcases the diverse sexual beauty and perversity of humans. People are having sex – YAY!

There’s also a fantasy element for me. Can I imagine myself in the scene? That’s good. If I get ideas for stuff I’d like to try, also good. Especially if it caters to my particular fetish. I’ve gotten many great ideas watching cock and ball torture clips. It turns me on to think about doing those things myself.

One of the things that surprised me when I was watching videos was that I started feeling kind of embarrassed for some of the stars. I looked at that right away, because I post naked pictures of myself on the internet all the time. But it’s not nudity that I react to. I love seeing people naked and it doesn’t seem shameful at all. No, what I finally realized was that I felt like I was intruding on a private, intimate moment between the two of them. Interesting to note that while I am an exhibitionist, I am not a voyeur. The porn was so good that I felt like I was intruding.

Now, I’ve been asking for more porn that showed real people, having real sex, with authentic orgasms, and actual connection between the stars. This is what I think is sexy. So the trick, in my mind, is to tell a story that shows all that and still invites the viewer to participate.

Of course, I’m feeling inspired to make more of my own porn. I was also watching camera angles and lighting and such. I think that we can duplicate that level of production values with the equipment we have now. I just need to recruit actors and come up with locations and plot ideas. I’m going to get right on that. After I watch more porn!